She’s Done Trying To Convince Everyone She’s Okay

Something about today just makes her want to cry.  She can’t pinpoint it… there’s nothing, in particular, making her upset… But maybe it’s everything. Maybe it’s the fact that she tries so hard to make everyone think she’s okay that she just hits a breaking point.

She thinks so deeply into every interaction, every experience that pushes her close to where her comfort zone ends, that it’s inevitable for her to become so overwhelmed that tears build up in her eyes.

She’s trying so hard to be OK and honestly, it’s exhausting. But the thing she has to remember is that it is okay to not be okay. It’s okay to cry yourself to sleep sometimes, or not want to eat. But she has to remember to keep moving forward even if it’s slow.

Every day she wakes up wanting to be better than yesterday but sometimes she doesn’t go about it in the way she should. Her life is starting to feel like she’s just going through the motions instead of living each day as a fresh start. And the truth is, she’s holding herself back.

She’s quick to point out her own mistakes and instead of focusing on all that she’s accomplished in life, she obsesses over everything in her past and doesn’t allow herself to let go and move forward.

She’ll pretend like she’s moved on, but really she still beating herself up over something she could’ve said or done differently. It’s so easy to be consumed by all the negative in her life, everything she wishes she could be like but sometimes she finds herself getting too caught up in it.

She needs to take a step back and think about all the good in her life, everything she brings to the table. Being hard on herself is what she’s good at, but she’s gotta love herself just as much.

She doesn’t need to be perfect. There is no one in this world that wants or expects her to be. And if they do, they are not people she needs in her life. She needs to put other people’s needs on the back burner for a little and put herself first. The people she surrounds herself with need to remind her to take care of herself on the daily, not to take care of them.

There’s nothing wrong with slowing down and enjoying life, it’s the perfect remedy for an over-thinking mind.  Her life is hard enough, so she’s done settling for less than she deserves and pushing herself too hard to be perfect.

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  1. This is so me today. Sometimes its difficult to concentrate on all the beautiful things in my life, especially if one thing goes wrong I just see myself stressing and worrying if I am doing it right. If my friends actually love me.

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